Day 4, 30 paintings in 30 days.
One of my goals for the new year is to paint in January.
My theme for all the paintings will be “writing.”
I didn’t want to paint today. I’ve had a headache all day, I think from consuming sugar yesterday. This afternoon, I wanted so badly to eat the last of the scrumptious chocolate cake my coworker brought from Vienna, but I resisted. I figured, if I don’t eat sugar today, and I still have a headache tomorrow, then I have a problem. If I don’t have a headache, then I know that my restriction diet from the past three months has made me very sensitive to my sugar intake—a good thing and kind of a bad thing, because I’ll never be able to blissfully and unconsciously eat sugary things again. But at least I’ll know that’s the culprit. Pray that I don’t have a headache tomorrow…
Anyway, didn’t feel like painting. Had the headache, have other things to get done, like housework and website work, and was a little bit fearful that I wouldn’t be able to create a decent painting today. I’m starting to feel like my luck is running out in the painting department. Three paintings in a row that I actually like! There is no chance that today’s would be worth looking at, which means it’s not worth creating. That’s what was going through my head as I sluggishly picked up my pencil to start sketching.
After the sketch, I sat and stared at the wall for about 10 minutes before finally squeezing some paint onto my cardboard pallet. The sketch was half-hearted and crappy. I really didn’t want to continue.
But I did. It started taking shape.
I finally got into it, and started to feel optimistic about the end result. The headache faded out of my awareness.
I took the final picture, and was quite pleased. Some of the things that I was worried about in the painting actually ended up giving the painting character! I didn’t know I could make old wrinkly pages! That wasn’t my aim, but I like them!
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