I booked my plane ticket, but I don’t want to tell anyone when I’m coming home from Armenia. I suddenly got cold feet about returning.
I thought I’d be ecstatic about it and want to tell the whole world. Instead, I made one phone call, and then feigned tiredness so I wouldn’t have to discuss it.
This is one of the most unexpected things to happen to me in Peace Corps. The entire time I’ve been a volunteer, I have been looking forward to seeing my friends and family and experiencing life in America again. And suddenly, now that it’s a reality, I don’t know how to prepare for it.
I feel like I’ve changed in Peace Corps. And I feel like when I’m with friends and family again, that change will be more apparent than it is right now. I think in some ways I’m afraid to see the comparison of how much different I am. And I’m a little afraid they’ll try to change me back.
But I’m even more afraid that I will just change back, without realizing it, and I like who I’ve become.
You don’t have to tell me that everything is going to be okay, because I already know that. I just need a little teeny bit more time to process the fact that the light at the end of the tunnel is getting very very bright and it’s time to make the transition to a different world.
I can do this. I’ll just take a deep breath and let you all know. It’s official; I’m coming home!
I’m flying into____________ on August___.
Okay, I’m not quite ready yet to let go of my secret. But I promise, I’ll see you all really soon. Just please forgive me if I succumb to the urge to hide under the bed for a little while first.
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